Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Believing the Promise!

Thanks for the video, Kerstin! I LOVED it & started tearing up there at the end. Loved it so much that I want to share it!!!

With God all things are possible!!! There are several miracle stories like that in this video all around me (2 in particular - K & L) & I just LOVE hearing them b/c it reminds me that it could happen to me. K had a progesterone defect like me (though her progesterone was lower than mine at 0.something) & even saw an RE who told her that she would NOT get pregnant without the help of IVF. Well, she now has 2 beautiful boys & never used any kind of ART at all. And L has NEVER been able to get pregnant without the aide of Clomid due to a progesterone defect but just last year she had her miracle baby who was conceived during a cycle that she didn't even think she ovulated at all & if I'm remembering correctly her progesterone wasn't even high enough indicating ovulation yet she got pregnant. I remember that so well b/c she came to me scared to death b/c she didn't want to lose her precious miracle bean & I comforted her, telling her this is her gift from God & that no matter what, this is His will for her. Actually I am very hopeful that despite no medical assistance this cycle & despite Mike's business trip that maybe, just maybe, this is the month God will bless us with a miracle.

Plus I have to remember that it WAS His plan to do the injectables last cycle. I'm not sure why exactly but I KNOW that was His will since He gave me the free meds. Of course I was hopeful that last cycle would be the one but it wasn't so I'm just watching & praying & waiting to see how He will answer my prayers. I can't wait!

In other news... a friend at church has a beautiful rocker/recliner for sale.

This is the exact rocker/recliner I have had my heart set on for a long time now & no one even knew except God. I didn't tell anyone about it, not even Mike. Then one day last week during my weekly Bible study with friends I asked them to be on the look out for a rocker/recliner for a nursery but of course didn't mention specifics. When I came home that day I jumped on Facebook to find a friend selling the exact rocker/recliner that my heart has literally been set on for so long for $100. I contacted her & she is willing to hold it for me since she told me that she literally put it out there on a whim & no one even showed interest in it, except ME! She will even hold it till we get pregnant so that God forbid we don't get pregnant, we don't have to spend the money & not use the chair. She is just so sweet - being willing to hold it like that for me. I don't know that I will necessarily wait that long to buy it (but I did ask her if she would mind holding till Oct in hopes that by Oct I will have the nursery painted) since I am having faith that we WILL get pregnant but just the offer has really touched my heart. Oh & she is willing to drop $20 on the price so I can actually buy it for $80! How wonderful is she!

I am actually working on what will be the nursery again. I lost the motivation to do it last year after the miscarriage but the motivation has recently been restored & I have gotten it 95% clean now & hope to get it painted very soon. I'll post before & after pics once I get it cleaned out a bit more.

Anyone have any suggestions as to what color to paint it? Actually I wanted something a bit neutral & the carpet already in there is light blue but I hope to one day put hard wood floors in there. I am really really leaning toward cream & brown mixed. When I say mixed, I mean that I want both cream & brown to show through in places where you literally see the brushstrokes not a single uniform color.

By the way, I found this pic (though it isn't very good) on the Internet that might give you an idea of the carpet color (top row, left)...

And here's kinda what I had in mind as far as how the walls will be painted but in brown & cream of course...

Of course I'm still thinking about this since I'm not a decorator really so I'm not sure if it will really work or not or if it will be too much on the walls. I wanted to kinda stick to neutrals so that I can decorate with paintings, rugs, bedding, & so forth to change the look as I want/need. Oh & I should add that it is currently painted blue (on the top half of the walls) & white(on the bottom half) so whatever I color I choose, it will have to cover what's already there. What do you think? Please feel free to share any/all suggestions.


  1. You are welcome! I watched the video over and over again. Two friend of mine became pregnant without even having their periods for month! God really works in mysterious ways. Keep believing, you're one day closer to seeing your own miracle. <3

  2. Hello Amanda,

    I'm confused :(. I just came back from a walk with my friend and our dogs. She thinks I'm to much into the whole baby thing, I talk about it to much, I think about it to much .... she says I should let go and accept that it might not happen, and then I'll become pregnant. But wouldn't it be lying to myself? I think about it a lot, thats true, but how can I change it? I thought I do the right thing by confessing the word of God with Psalm 113:9 and the other passages in the bible where it talks about having children. How can I not do that? This is my way of dealing with the pain when I see pregnant woman. What am I supposed to do? I know that my friend did not wanna hurt me, but she just doesn't unterstand. Why does it hurt so much right now, why is satan fighting me so hard right now? Am I close to my victory, is that the reason satan works overtime? I wish I could just call God's cellphone and ask him. :(

    I hope you're feeling better Amanda. Keep on believing! With God all things are possible.


  3. You should come join me on JustMommies... it's a GREAT online community full of mostly women. It's a GREAT support system. Plus we can chat a whole lot easier on there than through comments on my blog. ;) If & when you do join JM, be sure to check out the Christian Parenting board but don't let the name fool you, you don't have to be a parent to join the CP board. The board is for ladies who are seeking the Lord & fellowship together. That is the MAIN board I am on all the time... http://www.justmommies.com/forums/f44-christian-parenting/

    *hugs* Those who haven't suffered through IF don't get it. They really don't. I HATE the "Just relax it'll happen" comment. Um, no! I have a medical problem that needs medicine. (Not quite sure of your story if there is a medical issue going on or even how long you've been TTC.) Someone actually told me once that at least I have experienced the miracle of child birth once. >:| Which prompted me writing this post on my blog... http://galatians4-22-23.blogspot.com/2010/04/things-not-to-say-to-those-who-are.html.

    When you go through this it literally becomes a part of who you are & you do tend to talk about it a lot. I know I do. You def need to check out JM! =)

    *hugs* again! "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight" (Proverbs 3:5-6).

  4. Thank you telling me about it Amanda. I was looking for something like that. I wanted a forum with a christian background, all the others are just not right for me (anymore).
    Thank you for your kind words, I'm looking forward to 'meet' you an JustMommies and talk to you more often. It is also a great way for me to improve my writing. I'm still learning to write in English, so please be patient with me. ;)
    Have a wonderful day!