Lookie, lookie...

Lookie what I just bought today...

Isn't he just adorable!!! When I saw this little guy in Wal-Mart I fell in love & decided that I am going to buy him in faith that we will have a baby!!! It reminds me of something I read over on Pearls & Grace:

Something that helped to stretch my faith was to purchase those diapers and those sweet, little baby things. I have often encouraged friends and readers to do the very same thing and even place those diapers in the middle of the kitchen table like a centerpiece. I encouraged them to just thank God for the baby that is on it's way with each meal~ with each time they sit at the table. Just thank Him in advance for the sound of a baby in their house, for all the diapers they will have to change and for the sweetest and tiniest loads of laundry they will have to wash.

Thank you, Lord. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for blessing me with the baby I know I will have & for carrying me through the toughest times as I wait. Thank you so much for everything; for all You do!

Okay, one last "lookie"...

<--I was looking for a cute little emoticon to express love & found this... isn't it perfect, considering the circumstances!

Preparing for the rain! =)

Remember the parable I spoke about in a recent post, Pearls and Grace...

There were two farmers, neighbors, both praying for rain for their crops - for their livelihood. After praying, one farmer waited for the rain; the other farmer went to his field and started preparing for rain. Which one do you think had the greater faith?

Well, I just purchased, last weekend, a beautiful nightgown that will be just perfect for my stay in the hospital when we finally welcome a baby into the world. It's blue... my absolute favorite color & buttons up at the top (perfect for breastfeeding, which I think I would like to try to do) & it's a night gown instead of pajamas (which is typically all I own LOL). I will be having a repeat c-section so I thought the night gown would be the easiest for me & anyone who helps me the few days after the surgery & because it is a nightgown, there is no waist band to press down on the incision.

Isn't it just gorgeous?!

Actually I splurged a bit to buy it (not much but when you are counting every dollar like we are, every single dollar counts). I put it in my shopping cart & carried it around, praying about it... should I splurge or shouldn't I? I really wanted it but I haven't checked to see what nightgowns might be at the Thrift Store yet AND a hospital stay seems so far away that what if I find a different one a few months from now that I like even more than this one. I had decided that b/c I hadn't checked the Thrift Store yet I would at least look around there first & then maybe buy this one at Wal-Mart later if I didn't find anything else. Plus maybe I could find it on sale in a few months. So on my way to electronics, after I had made my mind up, I saw a beautiful baby boy that made eye contact with me... we literally locked eyes & in that moment I really felt like God was telling me to splurge so I did.

I was actually kinda afraid that our grocery bill was going to be about $20 over what it normally is with the nightgown... that was one of the main reasons I wanted to check the Thrift Store first; to save money. Well, I ended up spending about what I NORMALLY spend anyway so it really kinda felt like I was getting it for free & it was yet another gift from the Lord. Wow! He is just so good to me! Thank you so much Lord. I love you & praise Your Holy Name!

Pearls and Grace

I saw a link to the blog Pearls & Grace on a friend's blog yesterday... Pearls & Grace: The Sound. It brought tears to my eyes... it is definitely worth the read. What I got the most from it was...

Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when the the desire comes, it is a tree of life. ~ Proverbs 13:12

I want to encourage those of you who are still waiting with this one little word.......

When

When the desire comes, it is a tree of life.

When~ Not if.

Not maybe.

Not might.

Not perhaps.

Not if only.

But WHEN. Oh that's your word today sweet reader. When. It's when. It's a timing thing. It's a God thing. It's His timing. It's His hand. It's by His power. It's when He decides. It's when we let go and let God. It's when we choose hope and faith over fear and doubt.

She also talks about her infertility struggles & the wait; how she bought baby things for her future baby by faith. Actually there's a parable about this kind of faith...

There were two farmers, neighbors, both praying for rain for their crops - for their livelihood. After praying, one farmer waited for the rain; the other farmer went to his field and started preparing for rain. Which one do you think had the greater faith?

Are you preparing for the rain? Am I? I admit that I haven't done as much of this as I would like though I do have a few things that I have purchased (my 2 favorites being a beautiful "womb" bear & a "Children's Footprints" wall plaque). I am also knitting a baby blanket (that I have been working on for over a year now LOL).

An AWESOME movie to watch about this kind of faith; you know where you actually put your money where your mouth is sort of faith is Faith Like Potatoes. If you haven't yet watched it, I highly recommend it. Actually I think I'm gonna go add it to the top of my Netflix list right now!

Another post on the blog Pearls and Grace that really touched me is this one... Pearls & Grace: The Substance Of Things Hoped For. Why this one? It starts off with one of my absolute favorite scriptures, Hebrews 11:1, "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" & the bottom line message is this, "If he brought me through all of this then He must have a purpose and a plan and if He did it for me, then He will do it for you as well."

I know there is a purpose & plan for my infertility struggle. I 100% believe that I didn't accidentally get pg last year or accidentally have a miscarriage. Nothing & I meaning nothing would have prevented that miscarriage. I know every single bit of this is part of His plan... yes, even the waiting. I don't always understand why but that's okay. I'm waiting & believing & until my "tree of life" comes I will serve & worship the Lord with all my being.