Monday, March 1, 2010

Wait by Russell Kelfer

I got this poem at a local infertility support group last week that I was told came from the book, Hannah's Hope by Jennifer Saake. It is an AWESOME poem so I just had to share but before I do I wanted to mention that I went to the Thrift Store over the weekend & was hoping I would find this book. Sadly I didn't find it but I did score 2 other infertility books (Empty Womb, Aching Heart by Marlo Schalesky & When the Cradle is Empty by John & Sylvia Van Regenmorter) that I am so excited to start reading (for less than $5 total to boot... praise the Lord)! I hope to eventually buy & read Hannah's Hope (I've heard such GREAT things about it) but until then I guess these will have to do!

And now for the poem...

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft' My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

1 comment:

  1. I'm down to just one copy of Hannah's Hope (and it is already promised to a friend) or I would send you one, but praying God will provide it for you soon. The two books you found over the weekend are both great resources - I've been very blessed to get to know the authors over the years.

    Praying God's peace for you in this journey. {{{hug}}}
    author, Hannah's Hope: Seeking God's Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage & Adoption Loss